So Heavy (Acoustic)

Am I a fool? Is my hope in vain? I planted the seed of a shading tree But I'm standing in the rain Am I a fool? How can it be? I keep picking the scab of an old wound Just to watch it bleed And it's so heavy Too heavy to hold I watch my cup Fill up with doubt I keep drinking it up You keep pouring it out You push so hard That I push back Before I've even turned around Your sights are set, aimed and ready to attack And it's so heavy Too heavy to hold It's so heavy Too heavy to hold I can't catch up There's not enough time We are so disconnected, discontented Disappointed 'cause we lack connection With each other and with the earth Ignorantly thinking this is how it works Our lives have no meaning but to feed the machine Repelling sadness and pain with the swipe of a screen People closing their minds, sewing their third eye shut Measuring wealth with money and things they have not And it's just so heavy Too heavy to hold It's just so heavy Too heavy to hold Am I a fool? Is my hope in vain?