Desert

I know I had six months to just walk away But you stuck around while I was still too afraid Remember that night when he locked me out And you let me stay over and crash on your couch You slept on the floor because you didn't want me to be alone In the morning, you said you would never leave me out in the cold All day every day, we were glued to our phones When we wanted to know everything there was to know At night, I thought of you as I planned my escape While he ranted and raved but never looked at my face Falling out of love with him while I was falling in love with you And you said you'd marry me the very first second you could It gets so cold in the desert But now you're warmer than ever I know I fucked with your head too But what was I supposed to do? I never knew which version of him I would get Dr. Jekyll or Hyde, was always such a fine line That night another fight, it was finally time His macho shit, over it, and I left on my bike When I got downtown, another car was parked outside of your house And I knew you were home, but you didn't even answer the door You always said you loved me more than any before By the time I left him, I guess you'd gotten too bored When I thought someone would save me, you and everyone else Taught me the only way out is just to rescue myself At least I had a reason to get myself out of that mess But I can't forgive how you just sat there while she tore me to shreds It gets so cold in the desert I guess you're warmer than ever You had her there to distract you While I was broken and battered It gets so cold in the desert So now I bring my own sweater I've got my friends and my band now But I still think about you