Lost in My Infinite Memory

Hi, how are you these days? Everything seems sort of crazed And I feel so lazy, I could cry I feel like I could lay down and die And I feel like my life is already gone And it seems so hard just to get it on Though I think I'll try just for fun Though I fail I love you all but I hate myself And there doesn't seem to be anyone who can help And everything has turned out bad I'm so sad Why do you think I'll never give up? Drinking from my broken cup Although I'll never get enough I'll never fall in love again It's a sin, I just can't win It's like we were both stupid fools And hatred and horror ruled our worn out brains It's the same old songs of pain Gone public domain And it seems as if the road just goes on and on And I'm gonna write a letter to my friend Ron and my dad is outside mowing the lawn Till the dawn