Telescope

I see my own life flash before my eyes It all feels 100 miles away Bees pollinate rosemary A lone sparrow flies above the trees Car engines and a dog’s bark Echoing in the distance Warm hands lovingly hold my head I lie on my back I walk down the street As the sun calmly ducks behind the hills I see my friends on billboards Large faces smiling Large eyes following my shadow I look down at my hands I feel so small I keep looking through the wrong end of the telescope Every morning I need to wake up And realize one day I’ll die For a moment I feel the lifе around me I feel how big it all is My heart races and I stop walking And I put my hands up in surrеnder to the sky I always want to be somewhere I’m not I’ve made a home inside my own head I live in memories And daydreams And fantasies It all moves so fast It’s too loud and uncertain I’m breathing one breath and taking one step at a time But I always feel so far behind I’m scared for this moment to end For what will the next moment bring I wanna be big and strong I wanna be important I wanna be everyone and everything All at once So I can’t make up my mind One day I hope it will all quiet down But for now I’ll keep looking through the wrong end of the telescope