chaotic (Demo 3)

[Verse 1] I have this paralyzing fear that I'll maybe go nowhere But God forbid me ever admitting I could be scared And I can't stand my friends right now, we got nothing in common But being lonely's worse than just having friends that don't care [Pre-Chorus] You said it looks like I've been going through hell How did you know? How could you tell? Ask me to explain myself, well [Chorus] I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest Nobody said changing would be this exhausting A foot on the brake 'cause it's been making me carsick How could you blame me? Growing up is chaotic [Bridge] And maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head But I can't help it, no, I can't help it Fooling myself thinking that I'll never love again Goddamn, I felt it, I really felt it Maybe I'm just blowing all this shit up in my head But I can't help it, no, I can't help it Spending too much time on things I know that I'll forget But damn, I felt it [Outro] I'm trying my best here to be brutally honest Nobody said changing could be this exhausting A foot on the brake 'cause it's making me carsick How could you blame me?