Screaming Dead Balloons

I sit on my lawn Watching cars go by I'd stay inside [?] I’m not [?] no more Not afraid or alone anymore Not afraid of the daybreak Not afraid of being alone Being alone now When it's all been decided for you [?] And it's all just a matter of facts A long goodbye I sit in my room With the curtain pulled tight Sleep away the afternoon Stay awake all night I’m not laughing no more Not afraid or alone anymore Not afraid of the daybreak Not afraid of being alone All alone now When it's all been decided for you [?] And it's all just a matter of facts A long goodbye