Desert

I know I had six months to just walk away
But you stuck around while I was still too afraid
Remember that night when he locked me out
And you let me stay over and crash on your couch

You slept on the floor because you didn't want me to be alone
In the morning, you said you would never leave me out in the cold

All day every day, we were glued to our phones
When we wanted to know everything there was to know
At night, I thought of you as I planned my escape
While he ranted and raved but never looked at my face

Falling out of love with him while I was falling in love with you
And you said you'd marry me the very first second you could

It gets so cold in the desert
But now you're warmer than ever
I know I fucked with your head too
But what was I supposed to do?

I never knew which version of him I would get
Dr. Jekyll or Hyde, was always such a fine line
That night another fight, it was finally time
His macho shit, over it, and I left on my bike
When I got downtown, another car was parked outside of your house
And I knew you were home, but you didn't even answer the door

You always said you loved me more than any before
By the time I left him, I guess you'd gotten too bored
When I thought someone would save me, you and everyone else
Taught me the only way out is just to rescue myself
At least I had a reason to get myself out of that mess
But I can't forgive how you just sat there while she tore me to shreds

It gets so cold in the desert
I guess you're warmer than ever
You had her there to distract you
While I was broken and battered

It gets so cold in the desert
So now I bring my own sweater
I've got my friends and my band now
But I still think about you