Happiness at Best

I love you, I hate you, I'm on the fence, it all depends

Whether I'm up, I'm down

I'm on the mend, transcending on reality

I like you, despise you, admire you

What are we gonna do when everything all falls through?

I must confess, I've made a mess of what should be a small success

But I digress, at least I've tried my very best, I guess

This, that, the other, why even bother?

It won't be on my deathbеd

Rotting my brain once again

It's always the same and it nеver ends

Rotting my brain once again

It's always the same and it never ends

My internal monologue is saturated analog

It's scratched and drifting, I'm attached to the idea

It's all a shifting dream, a bittersweet philosophy

I have no idea how I even got here

I'm resentful, I'm having an existential time crisis

Want bliss, daylight savings won't fix this mess

I'm under-worked and over-sexed, I must express my disinterest

The rats are back inside my head

I'm rotting my brain once again

It's always the same and it never ends

Rotting my brain once again

It's always the same and it never ends

Drug me, fuck me, dull the pain

I don't ever want to know

Knock me down and I'll get up again

You know that I'll do what I'm told

I got a speck of truth caught in my eye

Stings like hell and it's making me cry

Getting up would only leave me wondering why

Everything is turning grey

And now I'm rotting my brain once again

(Put me on a pedestal, I'll only disappoint you)

It's always the same and it never ends

Rotting my brain once again

(Tell me I'm exceptional, I promise to exploit you)

It's always the same and it never ends

Rotting my brain once again

(Give me all your money, I'll make some origami, honey)

It's always the same and it never ends

Rotting my brain once again

(I think you're a joke, but I don't find you very funny)

It's always the same and it never ends