Odd Dates

Like a North Adak patch on a backpack while I'm following the path
And you smoked a pack to your apartment
Through dark and through sap
On the snowy swings, we laughed at a million things
Where I'm at, I'm still not sure but I know one thing
If we miss what we had
Then grab my hand and let's get it back
'Cause life's too short and that's a fact
And it's too fast but you already know that

I don't want you to force it, just one try
And if it takes time, that's fine
You take yours, I'll take mine
And if you change your mind
You have my apartment key
Meanwhile, I'll be here hooked up
To this record player needle like an IV
Pumping the same songs in my veins
And these will get me through the bad days
And the headaches and not having 20 dollars
Am I parked on the wrong side of an odd date?

The same songs that you used to play
Before you were on repeat in my head
Before you were the swing in my step
Before you came
Before you left
Before all the texts
And before I fucked this up
When I was just trying my best

So, for now, grand rapids will symbolize
Your destructive cyclical bad habits
And being so close that I could grab it
And the fact that no matter how hard
You believe something should be yours
Sometimes you just can't have it

I have tried
I have failed
I have tried
I failed
I tried

How could I
How could I love you anymore
How could I
How could I love you anymore