on the outside

I've been trying to keep My feet on the ground I feel like I'm floating Scared that I'll always be Alone in a crowd Where nobody knows me 'Cause they all laugh behind my back like I don't know That my whole life is the punchline to a bad joke I feel like I try But it's the same every time Do you know what it's like? On the outside Why am I so surprised? When it's the same every time Do you know what it's like? On the outside Yeah, in a different life I would go out at night And make friends with strangers I'd be someone they like If I could just get it right I wouldn't be such a failure But they all laugh behind my back like I don't know That my whole life is the punchline to a bad joke I feel like I try But it's the same every time Do you know what it's like? On the outside Why am I so surprised? When it's the same every time Do you know what it's like? On the outside I'm standing on my own I'm out here in the cold I just wanna come down You can let me go If I'm too much to hold I'll get better somehow (somehow) I'm standing on my own I'm out here in the cold I just wanna come down You can let me go If I'm too much to hold I'll get better somehow I feel like I try But it's the same every time Do you know what it's like? On the outside Why am I so surprised? When it's the same every time Do you know what it's like? On the outside