i want the light to swallow me whole

When you're not here, I feel so sick You don't make breathing easy Do you see me? Don't you know? Made me hate all that I loved If it all was over Think I'd still miss it all Can't go home without you Calling it, this was all delusional Think I'm falling out again Again, again Think I'm falling out Again, again, again Pull me, I push you Away and the silence kills me Take back what I said I've spent my whole life reacting You pushed my whole body to the floor Yet, somehow, you're the one to fall Is it me you really want? Is it me you really want?