A Long Way Past The Past

More than I had in mind More than I wish I knew And now it's near on me Some rush of red fear And my worst old times look fine from here I know you walked this route And you might help me out You said what's done is done I can't turn the hand 'round But still it looks a long way down And oh man, was it that much better then? We were left alone, we were proud of our pain And so I want to walk out in the night See the wide young river flood rain We're not on one straight line I made my own way through And when the track goes cold I'll know that it's true That rebirth won't work like it used to And oh man, was it that much better then? We were left alone, we were proud of our pain And so I want to walk out in the night See the wide young river flood rain And I can't let go Of a lot I've left I'm holding nothing But what I kept And it all got dimmer Each passing step And I need you with me And you read the writ Are you now insisting Is it not worth it? But I've got no option I inherited this and I'm overcome That's that, we're a long way from the past I'll be better off in a year or in two