i know you hate me

I've been fighting with thoughts and temptations I'm not good at holding conversations Bae bear with me, baby, please just be patient Want you here, I don't want my bed vacant Every night, we been fightin' and fuckin' and lovin' I don't know if I hate this shit or love it Don't wanna keep goin' but don't wanna cut it In a predicament but won't discuss it, no You say you love me But I know you hate me Don't ever wan' face me You know what I'm facin' I'm not one for chasin' You're never explainin' I'm gone on the weekends I'm off the deep end Nothing ever makes sense Watch you walk out my life And it ain't been the same since Put it in the past tense I was playing the offense But now I'm on defence Never said you were the one That was crazy I should've had better judgement, I was lazy Now I sit and recollect while I'm on vacay I should've known that you were trouble When you made me say That I love you so much I don't want you to leave And that you were the one That was pulling my strings And then you went and Ripped my heart up into pieces I never thought it would reach this You say you love me But I know you hate me Don't ever wan' face me You know what I'm facin' I'm not one for chasin' You're never explainin' I'm gone on the weekends I'm off the deep end Nothing ever makes sense Watch you walk out my life And it ain't been the same since Put it in the past tense I was playing the offense But now I'm on defence And once you leave There's no comin' back I don't wanna see your face And on top of that I don't want you in my phone No, I'm not textin' back I know that no matter what you do That you'll come running back And don't try to backtrack On shit that you said 'Cause to me in my head You're already dead So I'm gonna let you rest in peace, uh Hopefully this will end the misery