[Intro]
Gimme the people that died
Gimme the cuts on my thighs
Gimme the nights that I cried when everyone heard but turned off the lights
Gimme a lifetime of pain
Gimme a heart on my sleeve
Gave you too many chances to put respect on my name
Gimme a list full of people that took advantage of me and call upon everybody that said they’d come running but the second I need them
I DON’T SEE THEM, MAN I’M PISSED
[Verse]
But I think you knew that already
You said you could bе trusted but you fell back on that bullshit already
You think I’m crazy, right?
And if I told thе truth I’d be told that I’m lying and trying to ruin your life
But you fucking knew that already
You ain’t special
You’re just a shadow that lurks in the dark waitin' for prey to tear them apart
While you sit and laugh ‘bout the acts you’ve committed and the people you fooled cause they thought you were different
You cannot beat me, I’m just one on a list full of people you wronged
Bitch, I am building an army
You think it’s funny cause you've never been through the trauma
I hate the fact that I need to say this but keep all that energy if it should happen to your baby brother or momma
I tell you this as a warning cause what’s coming next is they numb all their pain with one big pharma
Now I ain’t the one to cast judgment but that shit’s a good way to get some bad karma
So please continue to laugh
But that is some shit you cannot take back
You made me so aggressive you should have expected what would happen after the fact
Run that shit back
All your apologies don’t mean crap, cause you ain’t even sorry
You’re scared you got caught
Let me show you what it’s like when you’re flashing back
Maybe it was me
Maybe I shouldn’t have gone out that night and wouldn’t have gotten so ugly
Maybe I’m blaming myself because I thought I could trust you
Cause you always said you loved me
Maybe you think I’m naive
Maybe in reality you have no power that’s why you need me on my knees
Yo It’s all a trick
I hate myself when I should hate you and god that makes me so sick
You were the problem
I’m in the depths of my own little hell and still everyone thinks I’m a bitch
You rip me open now I’m just exposed
Man, what part of no don’t you get?
And if I’m being honest they all say they care but I know they do not give a shit
So why the abuse?
How could you do that?
You leave a negative impact not knowing what you do always comes back
You’ve got a smile on your face but your heart is pitch black
And I’m letting everyone in your life know that it’s a fucking trap
I need help
But ya’ll can’t help with that
I kept my head down and kept my mouth shut and I defended you but I’m done with that
So go fuck yourself because you’re real good at that
The source of my pain and panic attacks
You’re insane, they’re a saint!
I can’t believe the things you’re saying
But, my turn
Why so serious baby?
Why do you look so surprised after you drove me crazy
You forgot that I was dangerous
And even stronger than before
You forgot that you took my whole life so now you owe me yours
You forgot about that night?
Well I have it burned inside my brain
I’m stuck inside an asylum but tonight I will escape
You forgot to carry shame
You forgot that I’m insane
You forgot that karma’s coming and she has my fucking name!
HAHAHAHA
I’m feeling violent
Go figure
I’m now in the mood to watch you be disfigured
You can’t keep your hands away so I think I’ll cut off your fingers
Then I’ll chop them up real nice and toss them in my blender
Welcome-come-come, come to my kitchen
You’re fucking sick
Here’s a spoonful of your medicine you fucking prick
I don’t even wanna know what kind of person does that shit
You know it’s just a power trip
I’m stripping you of all of it
I’m making you my bitch
Let me explain, it’s more than just a couple mistakes
It’s darker than it actually looks, this makeup hides all of my pain
I don’t trust you, it’s not the same
Everything you say is fake
That’s why I’m holding up a mirror so you can stare that monster in you in the fucking face
This is what you get
Did you think you were immune to repercussions?
What did you honestly expect?
Do you think I’m not angry?
Have no feelings?
Or maybe you don’t know you cut too deep and now I’m bleeding
Maybe you think that I am this close to just retreating
Or maybe, just maybe
You’ll never fucking care and the shred of remorse that’s even there is justified by what you tell yourself at night
I’m coming for your throat because karma didn’t bite
But just remember I gave you a chance to make all of this right
You asked for all this shit it’s not my fault that you can’t…
Stop saying that I need to move on when you don’t it’s like
Stop saying it can’t be that bad when you weren’t there that night
Stop making excuses for the rapists and creeps
Stop acting like we are the problem because we chose not to be weak
