Goodbye

[Verse 1] Last night I had a dream I was burning in Hell I had murdered myself, I was beneath Earth in a cell Satan looked directly in my eyes And said "Fuck, are you stupid? Sean what are you doing? What about your son and your music?" I said I love 'em both and I think I'm devoted As a father and an artist Sometimes I'm weaker at moments Where I just feel these impulses It's harder for me to control 'em Sniffin', drinkin', and smokin' Really I need just to focus (Yup) 'Cause when I woke up Feelin' like a failure Almost 25, is our music goin' anywhere What have I done? Look at all the time I've wasted I must be nuts So many tricks my mind is playin' been on the bus I try and exercise my patience but I'm crushed Man, I'm just really tired of waiting For something good to happen That's exactly what I can't do I'll make another push, then panic I've had chances, man, a handful, but I can't stop, slap box and [?] Do another show, tell the crowd to put their hands up Thinkin', is this what I'm meant to do? Man, I'm kinda skeptical If we ever wanna catch a break, we need to catch it soon 'Cause I'm feelin' like I'm suffocating, can I get some room? Don't wanna crumble, gotta hustle 'cause I feel impending doom [?] I wanna make it, most of all, because no one expects us to [Chorus: Anja Plaschg] Fold down your hands Give me a sign Hooked on your lies Lay down next to me Don't listen when I scream Bury your doubts and fall asleep [Verse 2] But last night I had a dream Only killin' my father Reason? I don't know I may be dealin' with trauma Maybe it's: I wanna measure his success with mine Feelin' like sittin' in second place won't stand the test of time So I testify On the record But I don't have a label of distribution unless Guess I'm just a clown in the shadow of my jester Gestures, I make 'em when I'm down but I'm helpless, effort Is what I've been puttin' in, but I ain't seein' results See, it's my fault, I'm dead, I ain't feedin' a pulse Readin' tall stories, War and Peace, relief and assault I'm going in, like hand me the keys to the vault I'm anything but a jealous being, who's ego is lost Should I let it be, like the letter B, tell Nico I'm sorry I didn't make it like I promised, failure not an option [?] dedication, 'till I'm layin' in my coffin Or a suicide, and you will find me hangin' in the closet [?], note: explainin' what I wanted 'Cause my pop's success, like being famous is such a problem I'm a product of a monster I'm an offspring of a rocker Platinum albums on this wall wouldn't accolade Thinkin' how the hell could I match that, that's insane No, insane is wanting fame deep down This is to whoever relates, someone reach out [Chorus: Anja Plaschg] Fold down your hands Give me a sign Hooked on your lies Lay down next to me Don't listen when I scream Bury your doubts and fall asleep [Outro] I'm not saying I'm content with just being at this stage But, I could die today happy, and that's straight up, you know what I'm sayin'? I'm happy This is shit that I always said "I wish I could do." I'm doin' this shit People appreciate my art, they know me for my art I'm goin' to continue doing what I've been doing until it's my time to go I'ma make mistakes, I'ma make some headlines, I'ma make people happy and I'ma piss people off But, I'ma do me. And I'ma be me. Until it's my time to, y'know, lay it all down