Passing Through a Screen Door

Cigarette smoke dances back in the window And I can see the haze on its own light I'm conjuring ghosts on a forty hour ride home And they keep asking me what I'm doing with my life While my cousins go to bed with their wives I'm feeling like I've fallen behind Well, the highway won I'm listening to traffic reports one on one Coming quietly undone I was born to run Away from anything good An escape artist's son Sun-drenched pavement in my blood The first thing that I do when I walk in Is find a way out for when shit gets bad and I've been looking for Tears in the screen door (Tears in the screen door) I've been waiting for Another disaster (Another disaster) Well I'm terrified Like a kid in the sixties Staring at the sky Waiting for the bomb to fall And it's all a lie What they say about stability It scares me sometimes The emptiness I see in my eyes And all the kids names I've ever liked are tied to tragedy And I don't want my children growing up to be anything like me I've been looking for Tears in the screen door (Tears in the screen door) I've been waiting for Another disaster (Another disaster) And I was kinda hoping you'd say I was kinda hoping you'd stay I keep a flashlight And a small knife In the corner of my bed stand I keep a flashlight And the train times But you wouldn't understand How could you understand? Jesus Christ, I'm twenty-six All the people I've graduated with All have kids All have wives All have people who care if they come home at night Well, Jesus Christ, did I fuck up? I've been looking for Tears in the screen door (tears in the screen door) I've been waiting for Another disaster (another disaster) And I was kinda hoping you'd say I was kinda hoping you'd stay I was kinda hoping you'd stay