Brass Beam (Demo)

I took a pill I went to sleep for the first time in weeks You kept me up With all your manic energy I had to go I put it out just like a cigarette I'd never be a girl You'd like or trust or you'd respect When I think about it I wanna punch the wall When I remember everything I wonder If I'll always feel small You look for me In the broken glass and styrofoam Painting yourself As a sufferer, a stepping stone You work real hard To herd your friends into a gallery Narcissistic injury Disguised as masterpiece I just wanna run, yeah, I don't wanna fight I just want to sing my songs And sleep through the night I endured your criticism Self-loathing and all your doubt I held you up above myself Trying to ride it out I got lost in your rendition of reality All my offering Rendered boring hyperbole I couldn't see the sun from there, just a beam I thought it would never come out, yeah I had to leave