Kindest Regards

Here to tell you the truth Tell you I'm nervous Tell you my story Tell you I'm worth it Tell you my flaws and my faults and my doubts Give you my heart and what's left of it now Tell you my hurt, tell you my pain Tell you the thoughts I keep trapped in my brain Tell you that nothing's the same Tell you I'm nothing much more than a man And tell you I fear I may never find love Tell you I'm getting in touch with above And right now, can't deny that I'm scared All this music I wrote won't compare or warrant the buzz Alone in my room Dissecting each line that I rhyme I don't know how I finish on time Miss a drop date three times I know that I let you all down Well, I was the first in that line, so Sever my soul from my body, engulf it in music, then give you something to relate This is somewhere to go when your heart becomes cold and your friends become fake As you stand on the edge of the world, you feel like you're destined to break And your grandma is screaming, "You're worthless!", and calling you names to your face Mom and I had to move to a place second time that I'll rhyme to paint this picture And I can't deny I would hide in my room and would cry from dealing with ya Pictures so vivid, you yell in the kitchen I'm taking my boxes, I've made a decision I'm done with your dissing, your father they're fixing I tried to be nice but you just wouldn't listen I couldn't wait for the day just to give you my take on the shit that you did Silly old bitch, never be like you Never be so rude, I hope I wish alone and sit, you sit, but this is where we end it It's crazy to me how the truth is often most offensive, battle tested Learned my lesson to forgive, but not forget I spilled my heart, opened my chest Irrelevant you are to me, but part to me, honestly Thought I should address, life often makes this mess I've come to give you more while everybody gives you less, yeah And, looking back on it all was a lie At your friend's house and there's no other guys Surprise! Now look who you're with—I'm not trying to diss I'm just telling you this that your feelings may fade, but your memories stick Hope you're happy with him I honestly hope you're happy with him And he does all the things that I would, and I tried, but I couldn't Could keep going on, but I know that I shouldn't I shouldn't waste any more time Shouldn't waste any more lines when you're drunk off the wine Do you find me crossing your mind? We knew this would happen with time But I think that we finally figured it out That we would just never work out I tried picking you up You tried pulling me down But now life without you is where happy is found And right now I'm just focused on music Trust you would lose it Ripped out my heart, you abused and you used it Love's not a label on Facebook When I gave you everything like, "Girl, wait, look!" But you didn't care I would just stare at my wall And you gave me no reason at all when you left Picked myself up when you made me feel less Much better off, and at that I detest Well, now let's just put it to rest I wish you the best My friends don't respond to my texts Yes, I've been busy with 'Kindest Regards' But is it that hard just to call? I wanna hang out yet you shutting me out And you put in no effort at all Now, you got me confused like, "What did I do?" Used to tell you if I make it, I'll be bringing all you Now, my circles are limited Few of y'all walked out and left That left no one to lose I got nothing to lose And nothing to gain by not telling the truth Been barely believing in love I still really don't even know if I do But, if someone was ever to make me believe Then that someone is you I promise it's you I never took action, you're Snapchattin' Asking me where all my music is at We're talking right now as I'm writing this rap You're someone I wish that I always could have And to be blatant, girl, your name is— Still can't say it, never could say it Scared you would hate it Wonder what crosses your mind when you play it I'm patient, I'm waiting for you Even wrote 'Rescue' about me and you Maybe one day we'll be, we'll wait and we'll see Now, I'm chasing my dream and I hope you do too And I'm hoping to prove I'm paying my dues Dad would get drunk and pass out, I'm like, "What are you doin'?" Booze and you lose it—he knew it So he got sober, so proud, I knew you could do it! I'm out at a party, ya'll tell me to drink Here's what I think—I think you look stupid! Sinking my soul into music, I do it for free And just know that I'm woven into it My fans, we turned into fam I'm here to guide you; give me your hands Tell me your thoughts and your dreams and your plans They told me I never could be what I am Now look where we stand We stand for everything we said we'd stand for When they tried to give us less, we said, "No, fuck that—we demand more!" And we stand tall Dan told me jump on the beat and go tell 'em the truth That's what I do, I do this for you I tell you my story to help you get through And you see that this life is hard The darkest nights make the brightest stars I'm bringing y'all with me, let's raise the bar I know y'all come feel this, whoever you are Kindest regards Mark