What Am I Doing to Me?

I try to go to bed early just about every night
Wanna stop my head from spinning but it's too big a fight
I give myself up for love and I don't even try
Tell myself when it's dark just to run and hide
Count the stairs to my door 'til I am safe inside
I do everything I can sometimes not to cry
I hate that I lose my shit
And I just don't know why
I hate that I can't even read my own mind

I've been on fire
I can't help myself
Runnin' on wires
Balancin' over heads
Anxious dreams pushin' me out of sleep

What am I doin' to me?
What am I doin' to me?
Ooh
What am I doin'?
What am I doin'?
What am I doin' to me?

What am I doin'?
What am I doin'?
What am I doin' to me?

Wake up shaking, I'm panicked, sleepin' all the time
Cracked my phone and I spilled another glass of wine
My friends keep tellin' me I should take my own advice
But I made my bed, so that's where I gotta lie

I've been on fire
I can't help myself
Runnin' on wires
Balancin' over head
Anxious dreams pushin' me out of sleep

What am I doin' to me?
What am I doing to me?
Ooh

What am I doin'?
What am I doin'?
What am I doin' to me?

What am I doin'?
What am I doin'?
What am I doin' to me?

Try too hard
Don't try enough
I don't know why I can't get myself to give a fuck
I'm burnin' down
No, I can't breathe

Can someone tell me
What am I doin' to me?
Ooh

What am I doin'?
What am I doin'?
What am I doin' to me?

I've been on fire
I can't help myself

What am I doin'?
What am I doin'?
What am I doin' to me?