My Effigy

I'm sick, sick of holding on
I'm sick of who I have become

There was a time I drifted, numb to every word you'd say
Trapped beneath the weight of thoughts I could not chase away
Hours stretched to lifetimes, stuck inside my head
Crossed beneath the doubt that I've never shed

These echoes of a battle
Scars I've never shown
I can't see the end
Lost in the unknown
Fighting endless combat
I'm losing to myself
How long can I hold on?
In this forsaken hell

I'm sick, sick of holding on
I'm sick of who I have become

Time has passed but demons stayed, they never lost their grip
The past still follows close behind with claws that slowly rip
Though I healed on top, the cuts still burn within
Still walking on the edge of where the dark begins

These echoes of a battle
Scars I've never shown
I can't see the end
Lost in the unknown
Fighting endless combat
I'm losing to myself
How long can I hold on?
In this forsaken hell

You're my reflection
You've watched me burn
I've walked through fire but now it's your turn

Every breath feels like a fight
Clawing through the dark
But I'm not alright

I'm punching the wall just to feel a thing
Addicted to violence
Your puppet on strings
Suffocating myself till my heartbeat returns
Still trapped in your fire
Where sanity burns

These echoes of a battle
Scars I've never shown
I can't see the end
Lost in the unknown
Fighting endless combat
I'm losing to myself
How long can I hold on?
In this forsaken hell