If I Was Dead

Lately I've been learning to let go
To let go of anything
Lately I've been seeing someone I don't know how to put behind me
And it scares me

Somehow, I don't know how
I don't know how this rapture found me
But I'm cradling it now
I don't know, I'm not in denial
This is one thing I'm taking with open arms

Cause your body throws away its leaves
And it leaves me for dead
No choice but love in the afterlife
Til we exhaust ourselves in the heat of it all
Still we lie next to each other
In silence, still breathing

Solid gold like solid love
How do you recognise it
I don't know, I guess
I don't know, I guess in dreams I find it

I've been loving from time to time
And when I returned, you listened
So I stayed here in what felt right
Even if it took time

Cause your body throws away its leaves
And it leaves me for dead
No choice but love in the afterlife
Till we exhaust ourselves in the heat of it all
Still we lie next to each other
In silence, still breathing

If I was dead
If I was dead