Got What I Wanted

Broke down on the freeway
Can't believe I called my father
My accounts are over drawn
I'm over worked and I'm so tired
Just tryna keep my head above the water, mm

He said you're anything but average
But something doesn't add up
'Cause why do I feel damaged
When I do my best, but it's still not enough
When life becomes work, what do I do for fun?

Hard to admit, on the tip of my tongue
I know I should love this but this shit is messing me up
And that really sucks, mmm

I thought this would feel different
It'd be everything I wanted
But the only thing that's changed is that everyone knows all of my problems
But nobody knows how to solve 'em, mmm
Pour my insides on the pages
Turn my feelings into profit
So I make all these mistakes
And I don't think I know how to stop it
But if I'm being honest, I guess that I got what I wanted

I used to hope that growing up people would stick around
But now I know enough, the ones that do just bring me down
They're telling me to swim while watching me drown
I'm using up all of my oxygen to make sure that I know I won't be forgotten
'Cause one day when I'm gone, these songs will be the proof you weren't the only one

I thought this would feel different
It'd be everything I wanted
But the only thing that's changed is that everyone knows all of my problems
But nobody knows how to solve 'em, mm
Pour my insides on the pages
Turn my feelings into profit
So I make all these mistakes
And I don't think I know how to stop it
But if I'm being honest, I guess that I got what I wanted

Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, (mmm)
Oh, oh, oh
Oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh, oh (mmm)
I guess that I got what I wanted