Growing Pains

I wake up in the morning in the arms of my whole world
I know that I should tell him I love him so it hurts
But I still sing of heartbreak when we are doing great
That's another time when it's me just being fake

A conversation with my sister
A highlight of a day
I should tell her that more often
I don't know why I'll wait
Cause right before you know it
It might go away
So why don't I just say it
Before it's too late

My father gave me music but had a wondering eye
I know my mother knew it, but stay there by his side
So everyone would think, what a perfect family
That's another thing that I know we'll never be

I've always had this feeling, this fear of missing out
So I still go to parties with people I don't like
I know I should go home but I'm staying every time
Yeah that's another way how I waste another night

You supposed to be a grown up when you are 32
So I'll just keep pretending cause I don't have a clue
Keep smiling like I'm happy but never been this through
Yeah, that's another thing that we're all supposed to do

When I'm looking at my grandma, she's all I wanna be
She doesn't have that darkness that lives inside of me
But then she never dared to do all the things she dreamed
But in another life, oh, I wonder who she'd be

When you become a mother, it's so hard to explain
You love someone so much, you forget to love yourself
You question the decision, but let nobody know
But when I hold her in my arms, I know I'm right where I belong

I know my biggest fear is being right there at the end
Just wishing for a chance, I could do it all again
But there's still time for living now while I'm still alive
So that's the only thing I will do before I die