Dark

I'll be gone like summer
I'll be here like rain
Far beyond my expertise where I'ma be that day
When you're gone like sunburn
Or you're here like rain
Far beyond my expertise where I'ma be that day
There was a movement in the sky this mornin'
The clouds tore open and it started stormin' on me
Lookin' at the roof in this broke apartment
Watch in case the walls start closin' on me
I used to have an old beat black guitar
I used to sleep in all of these trashy cars
I used to make the beat and spit the rap in the closet
Before anybody cared who the rapper was
And now my food got no taste and my room got no space
And my head got so big, don't remember who you is, dawg
Don't remember when it switched, but
Yeah, it's dark out here
You better believe it
Yeah, it's dark
I felt a hole in my soul this evening
I thought it would be different after I left treatment
I stood up to a demon, mama, you shoulda seen it
Remember back when Alex had no front teeth? I do
I remember most of it
Back before I shed my shell, now I'm a ghost of it
Remember back when it was the four of us like Ghostbusters?
Remember that?
I ain't even know a democrat from a lumberjack
Now it's mostly politics
Now I work on holidays, now I'm worth all kinda things
Now kids pin me up in livin' rooms in they mama's place
Man, I moved out my mama's place and then I bought my mom a place
Then I replaced my mama with a white bitch from the Palisades
Then after she broke up with me, I became who my mama hates
I became my dad, I would break promises that I would make to my favorite people
I'd cheat on my favorite bitch and then I would lie through my teeth
You remember when Alex had no front teeth?
I don't be remembering shit
I don't have a good memory
I mean I do, it's more like flashbacks
Yeah
That's what you have? Like flashes?
Yeah, I have like a lot of-
They're very like, brief flashes
What about babyhood
Got any babyhood shit in the back of your head?
Like, I don't remember nothin' as a toddler
Do you remember like-
No? I figured as much, so you got my memory
What's your earliest memory? Any?
Um
What house do you remember?
What's your first house you remember?
'Cause I don't even remember
I remember
Well, I remember your first house-house, it was actually an apartment
I remember