She Ruins Everything

Used to ride bikes now, I ride a fine line between
Long nights and my ever-shrinking sanity
Covering all the mirrors, 'cause strangers aren't welcome here
I could make a long list of all my insecurities
Then I could fix 'em, but who would keep me company?
Friends with my biggest fears, passed on my better years

Now I just got so much on my shoulders
I'm a little dim, a little colder
The younger me just wished that she was older
At 24, I wish somebody told her

She cries herself to sleep
Dies when people leave
Takes a little pill to hide the way
She's drowning in the growing pains
Killed the fantasy, for 'matter of time' mentality
Little me was wondering who she'd be
What a shame to see
She ruins everything
She ruins everything, everything

Back handsprings for people who won't do the same
Bad landing, I fell in a hole and I stayed
Bad at cutting habits, good at cutting wings
Not to be dramatic, but scissors kinda sting

So much on my shoulders
I'm a little bitter, little colder
The younger me just wish that she was older
God, I fucking wish somebody told her

She cries herself to sleep
Dies when people leave
Takes a little pill to hide the way
She's drowning in the growing pains
Killed the fantasy, for 'matter of time' mentality
Little me was wondering who she'd be
What a shame to see
She ruins everything
She ruins everything

Back when tragedy was falling off the swings
Back to running to my mom when my heart sinks
What a shame to see, she ruins everything
I ruin everything