When I Wake Up I'm Sad

It's clear that I'm addicted before I've even started
Another thing to control myself over consuming
But I'm not good with eating, sometimes it makes me nauseous
Avoiding putting the weight on my face again
And some people think that's stupid 'cause I've been called beautiful
But it doesn't matter what you say if you're trying to cheer me up
Maybe I'm realistic 'cause we're always getting older
Twenty-four and I've still never been in love
And I've got so much

And so I hold on to this and focus on something
That gets me out of bed in the morning
'Cause when I wake up, I'm sad
And I'm not saying I need a lover, but if I did...

I know that I'm obsessive with self-detrimental
Thoughts and habits, catastrophizing everything
But don't say that I'm dramatic, no, I'm just afraid of dying
Before I get the chance to be what I've wanted to be
Since fifteen years old when I, I borrowed Jacob's guitar
And he let me keep it until I learned all the pronto keys
Well, a lot has changed since then, I've sang at his funeral
'Cause he died at twenty-one, but I keep him here in my songs and

Hold on to this and focus on something
That gets me out of bed in the morning
'Cause when I wake up, I'm sad
And I'm not saying I need a lover, but if I did, I'd
Fall into them and slow time with kissing
A slightly less lonely life that I'm living, but
When I wake up, I'm sad
And I'm not saying I need a lover, but if I did...

But if I did
But if I did
Oh yeah, oh yeah, oh yeah
But if I did, oh yeah, oh yeah, woo!

Hold on to this, focus on something
That gets me out of bed in the morning
'Cause when I wake up, I'm sad
And I'm not saying I need a lover, but if I did, I'd
Fall into them and slow time with kissing
A slightly less lonely life that I'm living, but
When I wake up, I'm sad
And I'm not even sure a lover could fix that