Calm On The Outside

Yeah
You never know just by looking
But some of us fight like hell just to stay calm

I walk in cool night and smile wide
But inside it's a war I can't destroy
Heart racing with a poker face
Wet in fear that I can't erase
People say you good, yeah, I lie smooth
Can't explain this feeling that I can't prove
It's like drowning in a room full of death
Screaming loud, but nobody's there

Calm on the outside, storming within
Fighting off thoughts I don't let in
They see strong, but I feel weak
They hear peace, but I barely speak
Yeah, I smile like I got no pain
But I'm riding with a runaway train
Acting like I'm fine, but I'm breaking inside
That's what it's like when you calm on the outside

I don't see rats, I face the floor
Mind racing like a thousand doors, ain't no scars
Just tight-lipped fear, so I drown in the music or a midnight beer
I ain't looking for pity, just want some space
Where I ain't gotta fake this face
To the youth out there who hold it in
I see you, I've been where you've been

To the kid in class with a heavy heart
To the man at work who's falling apart
To the girl in the mirror with that tear-stained pride
You're not weak, you're just calm on the outside

Calm on the outside, my hands shake
Acting like peace, but I barely breathe
Still pushing, still showing up bold
While anxiety's burning in a chokehold
You seek control, but I'm losing grip
Trying to breathe with a bite on my lip, but I ain't folding
And I'm here, I survive, even if I'm calm (calm) on the outside

If you feel it
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