boy on the internet

As far back as I can remember, I always wanted to be a gangster

I'm free-falling out the back of the window
Back to when things were still simple
Now I've got nothing left
I'm just a boy on the internet
We won't talk, we'll just sit here in limbo
Looking for signs and some symbols
Some that we'll never see
Now we're just high on a memory

Can you feel me through the screen?
Can you tell me what it means
When I pour my guts out, and you leave me on seen?
I just lost a friend, I just lost a lover
Walking on a tightrope with my eyes covered
I don't wanna fight, no, I don't wanna crush her
I feel like a psycho when I'm off the uppers (cr1tter)

Uppers, downers
I just miss being around her
Another lie, another high, another compromise
I can't wait no more, I'll be gone tonight
Go through Hell to see the Heaven in her eyes
She treat me bad, I treat her well, there's no surprise

I'm free-falling out the back of the window
Back to when things were still simple
Now I've got nothing left
I'm just a boy on the internet
We won't talk, we'll just sit here in limbo
Looking for signs and some symbols
Some that we'll never see
Now we're just high on a memory

My recollection's alluding to lust
Picking my brain until it self-destructs
Something inside of me's calling your bluff
Calling your bluff (calling your bluff)
This little travesty lies in the rough
Thought I'd get over it, but I'm still stuck
Endlessly cycling this off the cuff
I'm not enough

I'm free-falling out the back of the window
Back to when things were still simple
Now I've got nothing left
I'm just a boy on the internet