Yeah
Yeah-yeah
Yeah-yeah
And the likelihood that I come out of this alive
Is a problematic fallacy of suicide
Everybody wanna talk real big when it comes to the digits
But life's a game and the numbers lie (Lie)
And if truth is to be told (Told)
I don't wanna know (Know)
Spoon-feed me lies (Ayy)
And leave me all alone (Uh)
Tell me I'm a joke (Yeah)
Cut me to the bone (Bone)
You can paint a pretty picture
With my blood on the stone, yeah
I've been contemplatin' this for a minute
I'm losin' sleep, thinkin' ya'll gon' get me
I'm just a man overboard and this ship is too heavy
They wanna talk, wasn't ready
I celebrate with a bomb of confetti
My guts explode on the levee, I live in fear of my peers
They sat they love me all the time
But that's not how it appears
I sit in bed, ponderin' how I bring strangers to tears
When I can't give myself some credit
Over several years (Several years), yeah
Somebody come and get me, I'm drownin' in this water
I'm screamin', cryin' all the time, but she don't even bother
I live alone inside this home with dreams of living farther
My trauma deeply rooted
Can't even text my father (Text my father)
And that's the real reason why (why)
I project my feelings into songs that I write (Write)
Copacetic dreams, but my tears turned to ice
So I pop 'em out the tray and get this bottle pourin' right
Uh, yeah
And that's the real, real, real reason why (Why)
I've been up all night (Night)
Hold on to the past
Even though it's out of sight (Out of sight), yeah
And I've been goin' through this shit for a minute
And I've been floatin' through so many fucking visions, I'm spinning
I gotta get up off my ass and get to inking these villains
But I just hide (Hide), uh
And I don't wanna try (Wanna try)
'Cause every time I think I do
I dig too far inside my mind (Mind)
Uh, yeah, uh
I dug a lil' too far, now the grass don't grow
Water on the roots, but the petals all mold, ay
Seasons do change, but the stem's still broke
So I glue 'em back together even if it's just a cope, uh
And you seem like you, you got a great heart, man
You got, you got some charisma
And that's with all due respect
But until you find it in you to live for something
It's a beautiful thing when you actually stand on your own
And you find that self worth
'Cause ain't nothing outside can touch you anymore
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