open house

I'm sick of this open house
My friends are not my pals
They all swarm in and out
And i just wanna be alone
Cause death sits on my mind
A fraction of the time
They say that love is blind
But i don't think they really know

I escape the ceiling of my brain
Feelings are unspoken when i'm tokin' in the rain
Easier to ignore all the pain
I bet you would do it too if you we're just as insane
As me
Contain my drinking
I wish i could
Just stop thinkin'
Pick my body up
I'm sinkin'
I just stared
As you kept blinkin'

It wasn't always like this
Lately i've been feelin' sorta lifeless
Lie awake at night tryna fight this
But i can't escape the pain so i write this
Song for a girl that'll never give a damn
Or a boy that's a friend that'll never understand
Or a mom that's confused about her son and where i am
Or a deadbeat dad that's just watching from the stands

I'm sick of this open house
My friends are not my pals
They all swarm in and out
And i just wanna be alone
Cause death sits on my mind
A fraction of the time
They say that love is blind
But i don't think they really know

I don't think they really know a thing about it
So maybe you should go just dip like shit
Like you don't really care bout me or him
If i end it all tonight does that mean you win?