New From the Pain

Running in place
Thinking I can hide
Doesn't keep me safe
it only keeps me blind

I don't fit anywhere
Can't reconcile it
The love was never there

I think I'd rather be alone in the shame
Take myself apart, build something new from the pain
Something I will never have to try and explain
To live with open hands

I tried Hostility, it only made me tired
Tried my hand at indifference, it didn't heal

I don't fit anywhere
Can't reconcile it
The love was never there
I think I'd rather be alone in the shame
Take myself apart, build something new from the pain
Something I will never have to try and explain
Because I can't explain