Least Favorite Only Child

Almost pierced my nose
In the bathroom out of spite
'Cause I had to move back home
And my mom and I were in a fight
But I just couldn't
Guess I'm not that wild
And I don't wanna stay
Her least favorite only child

Almost crashed my car
Into a light pole just to say I did it
I don't wanna die
I just want people to think I could've
So the next time that they see me
They'll hold me a little tighter
And think about how sad it'd be
If I wasn't alive anymore

And I know that it's probably selfish
And I shouldn't think like that
So what if I do it for attention?
Would that really be so bad?

'Cause I'm not gonna do it
Just gonna think about it a lot
And I'm not a danger to myself or others
I know its what it sounds like
But I swear I'm not
I just wanna feel different
Than what I've felt before
And I don't wanna be my mom's least favorite only child anymore

Almost ran away
I packed my car and took the keys
Just to see if I disappeared
Would anyone even look for me?
I cut and dyed my hair to try to feel like someone new
But I couldn't escape myself
No matter how badly I wanted to

And I know that it's probably selfish
And I shouldn't think like that
So what if I do it for attention?
Would that really be so bad?

'Cause I'm not gonna do it
Just gonna think about it a lot
And I'm not a danger to myself or others
I know it's what it sounds like
But I swear I'm not
I just wanna feel different
Than what I've felt before
And I don't wanna be my mom's least favorite only child anymore

And I know that it's probably selfish
And I shouldn't think like that
So what if I do it for attention?
Does that really make me bad?

'Cause I'm not gonna do it
Just gonna think about it a lot
And I'm not a danger to myself or others
I know it's what it sounds like
But I swear I'm not
I just wanna feel different
Than what I've felt before
And I don't wanna be my mom's least favorite only child anymore

And I know I should be kinder
To my body and my mind
And things are gonna get better
If I just give myself more time
I've got the rest of my life
To feel different than I do
And being my mom's least favorite only child
Must mean that I'm her favorite too