Holding On

Holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
I'm holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you

Scared of being honest with myself
Tired of always blaming someone else
And I've been smoking like I don't care 'bout my health
'Cause either way, life ain't fair, so fuck it, might as well

Lately, I've been looking back instead of forward
Getting lost inside a photo, we were laughing in the Rover
Now I can't help but look around to find a reason
Overdose on dopamine, waiting for a double meaning

Yeah, lately, I've been holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
I'm holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you

La nuit dernière j'ai rêvé d'elle
On était à la plage le coucher de soleil

I left my heart in a place that I can't go back to
I dyed my hair rose pink to feel like I have you
I don't wanna know what it means to let go, but I do
Yeah, I left my heart in a place that I can't go back to

Lately, I've been catching Z's and counting zeros
Hard to be at the mirror, try my best to see it clear, but
I can't help but getting lost in memories
I'm overdosing on reveries
I feel closer when I'm dreaming

Lately, I've been holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you
I'm holding on to who I was before
Before I lost you

I try, but not enough, can't keep my guard up
Unravel, spiral, I come undone
But if I close my eyes
I'm holding on to you, you, you

Holding on to who I was before (holding on, I'm holding on to who I was)
Before I lost you (holding on, I'm holding on to you)
I'm holding on to who I was before (I'm holding on to who I was)
Before I lost you (holding on, I'm holding on to you)

Oh (holding on, I'm holding on to who I was)
Oh (holding on, I'm holding on to you)
Oh-oh