House of Mirrors

[Verse 1]

My brain is a house divided

Rooms with too many doors

I can't tell you why

It's a home without a light

I spent most of my years

Trying to burn the roof

Stop being an arsonist, oh I was

Waiting for the wind

[Pre-Chorus]

I've seen people do crazy things

I've seen it in myself

But I'm not going back there

Planning my darkest hour

[Chorus]

Blocking all the windows

In a house full of mirrors

It's me against me

Blocking all the windows

In a house full of windows

It's me against me

Ah, ah

It's me fighting me

Oh

[Rap]

Yeah

I saw God on the sidewalk once

Walking towards me; I thought that I was dreaming

Put my hoody on over my head, tucked to my neck

Crossed the street, pretended I didn't see him

I keep beer close, and I keep love just out of arm's reach

Probably for a reason

Cos if I touch it, and learn it, and study it

I'll know how shallow it really is in the deep end

Why do I still wanna swim?

Why can't I surrender to the voices within?

Why can't losing it all in the wounds from the fall

Be enough to never do it never again?

I forget how bad it is

This fleeting happiness

Self sabotage, another means to balance in

Another Hail Mary to write my way out of hell

But I don't think that I'm ready to fully forgive myself

The truth they admire

But you are a liar

Psychiatrists wanna put my psychopathic self on mood stabilisers

Ruled by desire

The prayer doesn't work if the pew is on fire

Like

[Pre-Chorus]

I've seen people do crazy things

I've seen it in myself

But I'm not going back there

Planning my darkest hours

[Chorus]

Blocking all the windows

In a house full of mirrors

It's me against me

Blocking all the windows

In a house full of windows

It's me against me

Ah, ah

It's me fighting me

Oh