I Wish I Was Cool

If the stars don't shine bright
If they aren't good enough for you
Well, I would light them on fire
I know that I'm strong, I know that I put up a good fight
And if you would find yourself in trouble I will be at your side

I wish I was smart
I wish I was good at goodbyes
I wish I was brave like you, holding my fist up high
I think I'm more self-aware
It took me years to realize that I was nothing like I thought I was
I still struggle sometimes

I wish I was strong, wish that hell would open up
Give me the demons that stole your love
I'd string them up and never let them down
But, now I'm strong enough
To know when something's killing me
Choose the battles that I fight right now, I gotta run

I use to be fun but I use to be such a pain
I use to brighten up the room
Now I don't do anything
You've grown so tired of more or less of the same thing
But now whenever you are smiling I hope you are thinking of me

I wish I was smart
I wish I was good all the time
I wish I was fierce like you, you and your sweet design
I wish I was cool, I wish I was just like you
I wish I was cool
I wish I was cool