I Need New Eyes

I spend decades going about how nothing doesn't change
Slow tattooing the word impermanence all across my face
I lived examples
I found words to say it yet another way
Death and birth
Changing weather
And romance blown away
I just wanted to say something true
And complicate my youth
But now a new idea complicates my old age
It's that nothing arises in the first place
All this impermanence is just another thing my mind made
I would never hear
And nothing goes away

In mystical ignorance, I've prioritized joy
I chose to see this and not that
I laid in the tall grass
I just watched the breaths fall and rise while this life goes by

And the constant catastrophes pound on the wall
And who isn't my neighbor on this flaming globe

Now I'm starting at a boulder trying to tell myself
This didn't arise
I need new eyes