Foreign Hotel Garden

In a foreign hotel garden

And out of cigarettes

My mind is blunt from sleep

Look how late the morning gets

The troops went out exploring

I wish I knew what that meant

The world I long to open

Is not from this earth sent

The beauty I desire is void in form

A vast nothing has taken its place

Just a depressed imprint of love

Filled with empty space

My mind swung open its gates to me

And I walked bold into each one

Only to find myself etched into every wall

Without an open place to run

I'm careful to move between the voices

Whispering in ancient tongue

Stopping only when I'm beside

The person and place that I belong

Sometimes when I awaken

Unsure of where I might be

I can't even tell a ray of light

From a longing of the sea

A belly filled with nameless fruit

A dull rapping at the door

What is offered is too predictable

To even get up off the floor

Give me your temple key dear woman

Where the albatross leads your desire

And the game of dead end labyrinth

Is left for the gamblers and liars

Reflection is twisted into fiction

I prefer to ascend where I stand

Some want to die in their footsteps

Others prefer to rise when they can

Please don't scalp me now for thinking

Of the love that went unshared

Its not that I'm better off without you

Its that neither of us really cared

Let us change our thinking

And rule by the lord of our fist

We cannot go on sinking

Below a leader lost in the mist

Forever ain't as long as it is wide

I'll wait until the ices rise

Better to walk upon it later

Than to drown trying to reach for the skies