Anti‐Hero (Triple J Like a Version)

I have this thing where I get older, but just never wiser
Midnights become my afternoons
When my depression works the graveyard shift, of all the people
I've ghosted stand there in the room

I should not be left to my own devices
They come with prisis and vices
I end up in crisis, tale as old as time
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day, I'll watch as you're leaving
'Cause you got tired of my scheming
For the last time

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
At teatime, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

I literally never feel like anyone's a sexy baby
And I'm a monster on the hill
Too big to hang out, slowly lurching towards your favorite city
Pierced through the heart, but never killed

Did you hear my covert narcissism I disguise as altruism
Like some kind of congressman?
I wake up screaming from dreaming
One day, I'll watch as you're leaving
And life will lose all its meaning
For the last time

It's me, hi, I'm the problem, it's me
At teatime, everybody agrees
I'll stare directly at the sun, but never in the mirror
It must be exhausting always rooting for the anti-hero

The anti-hero