Faustian Bargain

It's easier to paint you as a lover or a friend
Than to say you were a stranger that I never truly met
This metaphoric picture makes it easier to see
That I'll always love you deeper than you'll ever feel for me
It's stupid truly stupid
How I hate to love you so
When all you did was live a lie
And pull me down below
I rest my head in metal, voices screaming what I can't yet say to you
I cry out loud and everyone hears words I say are only meant for you
What's it like to sit alone
love nobody but yourself?
Why do I still follow you
let you keep me on this shelf?
I miss the blue of your canoe
You used to parade 'round
While singing me to a golden slumber
Paddling to ground
What happened to the girl I knew
Who wore her hair in curls?
What Faustian bargain did you give in to for your pearls?
It's stupid truly stupid
How I hate to love you so
You never even said goodbye
How could I ever know?
You're cold as ice
You're never nice
Why do I still come back?
I think I hoped
That I could rope
You back in line with me
I rest my head in metal, voices screaming what I can't yet say to you
I cry out loud and everyone hears words I say are only meant for you
What's it like to sit alone love nobody but yourself?
Why do I still follow you
Let you keep me on this shelf?
Canoes to yachts
Hid away your locks
Where'd the girl I knew
Take off to
Switched your bicycles for convertibles
Left me gasping in your dust
All you can behold
Are the fields of gold
That you signed your soul away to
When did you decide
That it hurt your pride
To hear the words "I love you"?
You're withering away
Withdrawing day by day
Your heartbeats I once fell asleep to
Never even play
Oh was it worth it?
Trading all your mortal goods my love?
When did you change your mind and find that I was not enough?
I rest my head in metal, voices screaming what I can't yet say to you
I cry out loud and everyone hears words I say are only meant for you
What's it like to sit alone
Withering away?
Why do I still follow you?
Why do I still need to stay?