see me

I've never been confident
Never wanted to take my shirt off in front of girls
And it's probably something that I have learned
Need to come to terms and be honest with
But I'm too scared of what people might say

I'm afraid of everyone judging me
Once they observe what I preserve, and stop loving me
'Cause that shit hurts, I did it first, and it's cutting me
Deeper than a knife ever could
I'm no good

Give me strength
I've cried too many times here in the quiet
In my bed
I hate myself, but I do it in private
I'm so scared
I just can't have you anywhere near me
'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me?

I think I owe an apology
To the kid I was when I was young, 'cause I promised him
That I'll figure all this out by the time that he'd gotten here
But that was a lie, and I am still ashamed
'Cause I'm to blame, ooh

(Ooh-ooh-ooh)
The war that I'm fighting is fought by a person I can't see
(Ooh-ooh-ooh)
And lately, I'm hiding, all 'cause of me

Give me strength
I've cried too many times here in the quiet
In my bed
I hate myself, but I do it in private
I'm so scared
I just can't have you anywhere near me
'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me?

Lost my head
I'm not too proud of the way that I'm hiding
Eyes are red
Been months since I caught myself smiling
I'm so scared
I just can't have you anywhere near me
'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me?

Give me strength
I've cried too many times here in the quiet
In my bed
I hate myself, but I do it in private
I'm so scared
I just can't have you anywhere near me
'Cause what if you see me the way that I see me?