honest

I recently realized
I've been the bad guy for a long time
And that doesn't sit right
I gotta take charge of my life
I've gotta be fine for me or fine with me
Spend a lot of time with me
Cause what's good for you's not good for me at all
I gotta be honest
Can't be hard to be honest
Wait why's it hard to be honest?
Why'm I always stuck on it?

Truth be told it's been a while since I've been writing
Wish I could say that it's been longer since I've lied and
Can't make promises but I know I don't wanna end up like him
These thoughts can't be intrusive if I invite them
Look, what do you want
Do you check your read receipts to see whose side you're on
No proof is enough
You look past the words I say to criticize the tone

Hey
It's always fun to fault when you're involved
I'm so uncomfortable and I'm freezing cold
Reminds me of a white lie I once told
Of a bond that we lived on until we broke it
A token, I'm all choked up
Tried put that act to bed
Instead you called my bluff
It's funny how it's hard to find
'Til your in inches of your life
That inches further was the light
That coulda broken your disguise
(I've gotta be honest)
I've told you like so many times (Can't be hard to be honest)
That it's all in your mind
So let's leave it behind us (Wait, why's it hard to be honest?)
Evolved into someone your kind (Why'm I always stuck on it?)
Now I know what it's like
And I hate being honest
I've told you like so many times
That it's all in your mind
So let's leave it behind us
Evolved into someone your kind
Now I know what it's like
And I hate being honest

I recently realized
I've been the bad guy for a long time
And that doesn't sit right
I gotta take charge of my life
I've gotta be fine for me or fine with me
Spend a lot of time with me
Cause what's good for you's not good for me at all
I gotta be honest
Can't be hard to be honest
Wait why's it hard to be honest?
Why'm I always stuck on it?