Lifeboats

[Verse 1]

I just want to feel alive

And love myself from the in and the outside

Cause every time that I start to feel whole

I knock myself on the ground because it's all that I've known

Just like the streets burn a hole through your shoe

My soul has been worn out too

I'm 25 and I still don't fit in

Directionless like a blind man painting

[Chorus]

Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this

The lifeboats are leaving with or without me

What's the point of falling in love?

If I don't love myself

What's the point of being alive if all I want is out?

[Verse 2]

So I thought that it only feels right

To make the decisions that endanger my life

Late late at night under black and blue moons

I question the reasons that I self-abuse

I'm so pathetic, it makes me sick

I'm a fingerless pianist

I see reflections, I clench my fists

I'm a violin without the strings

[Chorus]

Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this

The lifeboats are leaving with or without me

What's the point of falling in love?

If I don't love myself

What's the point of being alive if all I want is out?

[Bridge]

There is no love, there's only this

Just lust and lies and selfishness

A black hole where the sun once was

I'm never falling back in love

Cause it has never been enough

[Breakdown]

Ever since I've been a young boy, I was alone

Now that I've become a man, the feeling's grown

Through the therapy and through the pills, I can't let go

But what about the fucking fact I'm still alone?

What do you do when you got nothing left?

Give up, give up! And hope for the best!

I fell into the ocean, I and I feel sick

Waiting on a nameless rescue ship

What do you do when you got nothing left?

Give up, give up! And hope for the best!

I fell into the ocean, I and I feel sick

Waiting on a nameless rescue ship

[Chorus]

Mother I'm so sorry, I can't go on like this

The lifeboats are leaving with or without me

What's the point of falling in love?

If I don't love myself

What's the point of being alive if all I want is out