Death By Admiration

The problem with letting go

Is admitting to yourself that it’s over

I couldn’t let you in

What would happen then?

So then I hid a little more

Each day until my world grew colder

I couldn’t let you in

What would happen then?

Afraid to be with me myself

And I sometimes

Get lost in the chaos of my mind

I don’t want to lie to you

But it’s all I do

And I’m so afraid of losing you

I tried to be everything

But everything just left me broken

How could you know me well?

I didn’t know myself

Suffering

So many things, another life beneath the surface

How could you know me well?

I didn’t know myself

Afraid to be with me myself

And I sometimes

Get lost in the chaos of my mind

I don’t want to lie to you

But it’s all I do

And I’m so afraid of losing you

Though every day there seems to be this pain

I’ll find a way

Find a way

I will escape

And God I know that

You’re here with me

You’ll never leave

And I know that You’re saving me

Afraid to be with me myself

And I sometimes

Get lost in the chaos of my mind

I don’t want to lie to you

But it’s all I do

And I’m so afraid of losing you

Afraid of losing you

Afraid of losing