Don’t talk about it (sad version)

[Verse 1]

Don’t ask me how I'm doing

I'm gonna lie to you

I feel the need to please my people, it's just what I do

So dry your tears, I always got you, ain't as bad as it seems

I can't imagine if I lost you, you mean too much to me

I'm writing paragraphs to beg you not to end it all tonight

'Cause I know that you would always do the same for me, right?

If the roles are reversed and I was fading away

You'd take my thirteen reasons why and give me a million to stay

[Verse 2]

What do you mean you can't talk right now?

I knew I was a burden

No-one wants to talk to me when I'm really hurtin'

And this is why I lie, why I smile and fake it all

Being broken isn't hot to you, depression's a turn-off

So turn it off

Pretend again that everything's okay

Save the mental breakdown

Save the tears, ignore the pain

Wait 'til you're alone so no-one sees you at your worst

'Cause the more you open up

The more it fuckin' hurts

[Chorus]

Oh, nothing that I do for you is ever good enough

Get out of my head, you ruined everything I love

Can't even go home, the memories might eat me alive

I'm dying, but I'm trying to survive

I'm trying not to cry, I'm trying to provide

I'm lying to myself when I say that everything is fine

[Verse 3]

Why would I self-care if there is no self-love?

How do I remain selfless as I create more cuts?

Why do they stare?

Like I'm a freak in a cage?

Do you really fuckin’ think that I enjoy this pain?

Don't you know that I loathe it when you all press your little noses

As you kill a little piece of me

And then offer condolences

I think I'm out of my mind and

I don't want you to know

That if I cut deep this time

Because I want to let go

[Verse 4]

"Hang in there, baby" it sounds so easy and basic

And it's easily said from someone who already made it

I ain't strong enough to make it through another day

And I'm so fuckin’ tired of saying

“it'll be okay”

Prove that shit

Or get out of my face

'Cause you don't know what's in my head, or why I numb my pain away

And you don't care neither

So stop acting like you do

I don't need you to be fake

I just needed someone to talk to

[Chorus]

Oh, nothing that I do for you is ever good enough

Get out of my head

You ruined everything I love

Can't even go home

The memories might eat me alive

I'm dying, but I'm trying to survive

I'm trying not to cry

I'm trying to provide

I'm lying to myself when I say that everything is fine

[Bridge]

(I've gotten)

So used to pretending to be who you need and not who I am

When will I learn my lesson?

These are the confessions of an empath in need of a friend

[Chorus]

Oh, nothing that I do for you is ever good enough

Get out of my head

You ruined everything I love

Can't even go home

The memories might eat me alive

I'm dying, but I'm trying to survive

I'm trying not to cry

(trying not to cry)

I'm trying to provide

I'm lying to myself when I say that everything is fine