I Still Want To

Tell me we're fake in love
I didn't make this up
Trippin' on every word you said
Am I out of focus
And what was your motive
Talkin' that bullshit to your friends?
This isn't confidence
Maybe it kind of is
I know it's fucked up either way
Did I ever have you
Or was it a half truth?
Leaving you burned into my brain
Now I can try to face it
But when we're face to face it changes
If there ain't nothin' for us to talk through
Then why do I feel like I wanna call you now?
(Déjà vu)
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to
I thought it'd be better but this is real life
Tried to forget you but now it feels like hell
(Déjà vu)
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to
I keep saying it's worthless
A pain with a purpose
Was keeping it real but somehow got it wrong
But it doesn't matter
It's already shattered
I guess I'm ok with being strung along
Now I can try to face it
But when we're face to face it changes
If there ain't nothin' for us to talk through
Then why do I feel like I wanna call you now?
(Déjà vu)
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to
I thought it'd be better but this is real life
Tried to forget you but now it feels like hell
(Déjà vu)
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to
Yeah, I still want to
Made a mess of all of this
Blissful in my ignorance
Thinking it was permanent
But I still want to
If there ain't nothin' for us to talk through
Then why do I feel like I wanna call you now?
(Déjà vu)
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to
In my head it'd better but this is real life
Tried to forget you but now it feels like hell
(Déjà vu)
I know I said I wouldn't but I still want to