I Don't Like Who I Was Then

Tossed around like sea glass
And you rounded out my edges
I'll feel better when the headaches go away
I've got a scar across my forehead

Turning purple in the cold
From a night at Shore Memorial
I was 16 and afraid
Turned away
And I'm working baby face
Out of Mid-South in the '80s
I kept a blade hidden in my wrist tape

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust
I want to shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks
I want to run 'til my lungs give up
If I could manage not to fuck this up
If I could manage not to fuck this up
I think enough is enough

Hidden in the tall grass
In the naked light of day
Put my past self in the ground
I've been dancing on the grave
I'm not the person that I was then
I'm tearing him away
I was bitter, I was careless
I was 19 and afraid

But you deserve more from me
I don't know why I would say those things
But you deserve more than me
And I'm trying every day

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust
I want to shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks
I want to run 'til my lungs give up
If I could manage not to fuck this up
If I could manage not to fuck this up
I think enough is enough

You left me walking in circles
You were a shot in the dark
You were the baby teeth I buried
You were the sounds of distant cars

You left me walking in circles
You were a shot in the dark
You were the banner that says no one
That I tattooed across my heart

You left me walking in circles
You were a shot in the dark
You scattered like ashes across every song that I write
You are the light pollution starts

I think I'm growing into someone you could trust
I want to shoulder the weight 'til my back breaks
I want to run 'til my lungs give up
If I could manage not to fuck this up
If I could manage not to fuck this up
Enough is enough