the chase

With a sudden and keen awareness to the death
Hanging off the shoppers milling about the grocery store
Zone breaker two six five
Boosting Gillette's in a hopeful exchange for a sharp, but tranquil synthetic isolate
A substance, that will make me sob pathetic to my girlfriend up high in miracle's castle
The dark disease lined across my sweaty forehead a dead giveaway, my halo

In three days it will sink down to my neck and choke me out, but she kisses mе tonight
And I imagine the word for this flavor is singed
Your monеy's no good here, the bad way
And in between deep nonsensical cries
About what's wrong with crackheads owning guns, if they're good people
I finally feel the comforting, familiar feeling of potential sleep
Rising up through the bile in my throat
Each sunrise threatens like a group of kids enchanting in tone down parish

I lay down scratching through my skin
Biting viciously to let my worry slip halfway into blissful mush
And eventually dream thinly of a green box of Pampers
In the middle of the slushy, winter pot-holed streets
Getting run over, and over, and over
By salty patterned tires, I dream of teeth falling out
I dream of swimming through dirt, and later wake up in a pool of sweat
And she gazes at me lovingly

The me she remembers, the promising mirage of water in this cruel desert
Because true love is a long and enduring thing
Like the addict in the street, using against their own will
Refusing to die, yet determined to
And to which one will I say, "I love you"?
To which one will I say, "I need you, or I'm gonna fucking die"?
Because it's true, it's true for both, after all