I Don't Have the Heart

We spoke for hours in that back room
I've never said that many words in my life
It was a catch-up, attached to
The people we used to be like

You keep a lot of me with you
Hanging on to the flowers when the petals go dry
But you've been staring at the rearview
And missing all the green lights

The answer is not in me
Do not dance around the truth
I know just what you're thinking
But it can't give that to you

I don't have the heart
I don't have the stomach
The energy to dust you off
To get you up and running

I don't have the heart
To tell you I'm not going
When you're tugging all the parts of me
That you're still good at knowing

I don't have the ways to make ends meet
Their actual ending, I always extend them
And with the way you look at me
I'm scared it's gonna happen again

I'll keep a lot of you with me
Hanging on to your humor and regretting your sins
Why does this feel like the upbeat
Waiting to fall into a groove again?

The answer is not in you
That is something that I'm sure
And you must stay a place that I don't
Frequent anymore

I don't have the heart
I don't have the stomach
The energy to dust you off
To get you up and running

I don't have the heart
To tell you I'm not going
When you're testing all the parts of me
That you're still good at knowing

Wake the fuck up (I know)
Here you are, toeing the line again
And weaseling your way back in
And I'm stuck
Between you and a wall (between you and a wall)
Looking through the door

I don't have the heart
I don't have the stomach
The energy to dust you off
To get you up and running

I don't have the heart
To tell you I'm not going
When you're twisting all the parts of me
That you're still good at knowing

I don't have the heart
Heart
No, I don't
I don't have the heart