Eventually But (Spud's Letter to Gail)

[Ewen Bremner]

Gail, I wish I could find better words today to tell you I'm sorry. You shouldn't have to read this because I already made you suffer too much, but I know that you and Fergus, are living in a better world without all my chaos

I'm sorry for all the things I destroyed. You're so beautiful. The most beautiful in the world and I only ever made this world ugly

Fergus needs things to be simpler, I know how embarrassed he is about me, I could not be the man that you both need. I've tried and tried and tried for twenty years and everything I try is another disaster. I love you. I love Fergus more than anything, but I'm finished Gail, I'm sorry. I love you both. I want to see you both smile again, Danny Boy

[Karl Hyde]

Now I'm sat on a chair outside the door of a corridor

A blue door, locked door

I'm tryin' not to be noticed

Here comes a face

I know that face

It smiles at me

And silent, and silent, and silent