It Was Not Natural

When I am tired

Unbidden, I go for a walk

I have to walk

Or else I do not recognize myself

My foot uncovers

What my heart wishes is a treasure

Seemingly foreign

But somehow still it is familiar

It could be amber

It could be animal or antler

They do resemble

They do remember one another

[Chorus]

It was not natural, all along

Only human hate could give us something so unforgiving

It was not natural, all along

Only human hate could give us something so unforgiving

Something so unforgiving

As I expected

With time it hasn't gotten easier

I have to work now

At things that used to be like breathing

I try to focus

Forgive myself for having so much

I am too busy for it

Or else I am not busy enough

When I see clearly

I know we share the same devotion

But joy is hungry

And you know I can't promise anything

[Chorus]

It was not natural, all along

Only human hate could give us something so unforgiving

It was not natural, all along

Only human hate could give us something so unforgiving

Something so unforgiving